I decided im going to continue and put this entry in pheonix's list instead of me other acc. Well, anyways yesterday i would have been on gaia for 30 -45 minutes like im allowwed to but my a*****e brother joe says i have a "addiction" and that i dont have control. All he did was repeat himself the whole argument. He never brought up a solid point aside from the fact i was on so long during winter break, the only reason for this though was because i was so bored i had to do something and so i would start talking to friends and whatnot on gaia, which would go on for hours.
The only thing he brought up was the fact that people would try to call and get a busy signal... we have a cellphone to call so i know i need to get off... and he was yelling at me saying i only get off when mom gets home or the cell phone goes off. Which was only during break!! Now im getting off when my time expires and whatnot and truthfully he has serious pissed me off. I dont care if to me i am no better than the assholes who live around us, because to me he doesn't even exist anymore. He thinks he is the only one who gets flak for others actions... its not true when he isn't paying attention at events i get yelled at it too.
Its stupid for him to "do something" because in fact what he does is basically nothing at all. If he is going to continue "doing something" than he might as well move out of the house because he isnt the adult and i dont care if he has been getting flak for my actions because he has no reason to try to call me a monster and saying i have an addiction when i only wanted 30 minutes because i could not connect to the internet at school when i didnt have my i.d.
Well, on a lighter note i went to stockton chapters meeting and got a ride from josh who had to show up early for the sweethearts tea that hilary was doing to support her. Well, the good news was i got to see mandy there ^-^ (mandy is a friend of mine who i have had the biggest crush on for a long time now and only recently have actually said anything about it.) . She is really cute, but constantly says she is bad at this and that or fat and whatnot when she really isnt i think she is perfect the way she is and shouldnt change any bit. The odd part though is around other people i have a hard time trying to express or say my emotions since she has a bf kurt, and every time i try to say something or do something in front of people i just get this feeling like i shouldn't.. i dont get it... but i love her and dont want to turn into kerry whitch is really hard considering i woke up thinking about her, and went to bed thinking about her and lost sleep damnnit, this really sucks....
IM DONE TYPING NOW THIS IS TOO LONG!!!!
laterz, PheonixFlare
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