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I havent seen either of my parents for ten years because they are both addicted to drug and alchohol, I actually dont think I have seen my father fo 13 years and I am now fourteen. I remeber when I was four and I was being taken away from my mother for the last time the last words I said to her were that I hate her and never wanted to see her again. I have always wondered what became of her but then about five months ago I moved in with one of my older sister's and her husband. I guess my grandma figure that would be a good time for my mother to phone me. So I got a call from my brother who was in jail at that time and he said someone else was on the phone as a three way call.It ended up being my mother. I didnt know what to do so I just listened, she went on about how much she loved my and missed me and thought about me every holdiay and every night. But then I had to tell my sister who I was talking to so I just gave her the phone. My sister got mad at her because I am not aloud to have contact with her and hung up on her. My sister then asked me if I would want any contact with my mother. I siad no, she then said that would probably be best because of all she is going through, and she is still on drugs and such. I wonder so often if what I am doing is right. I mean not wanting to see her. I know deep down I want to see her more then anything. I just am afraid of how badly it could ruin my future, I dont know what to expect.
What should I do?