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this day was one of the worst
I swear life is as bad as it can get for me right now. I'm moving I'm leaving behind all these friends just like all the past years of my life. Ever heard that saying that man should learn from his mistakes in order to not repeat them? Well for my life it sounds something like this you live in a cycle and if the cycle changes(which it rarely does) most likely it will not be a good change. My friend slept over last night and it was fun and all(thx 4 comng liz) but tonight is like my worst nightmare come true....again. My mom and stepdad were fighting, they even scared my three year old sister and made her cry by "accident" they think she doesn't get it but she does she cries each time they fight. We're moving and they might split up. On top of that my stepdad has the nerve to come barging into my room and tell me to tell my mom to calm down when BOTH of them are screaming at the top of their lungs. How the heck am I gonna do that I just wanted them both to shutup or slam my door into their faces. Maybe even grab my sister and run, run as far away as I can. I used to think my greatest fear was dying all alone but my fear now is them splitting up. What's gonna happen to us? What about my sister, two dogs, and me doesn't that matter in the least to them? Right now my mom is in my sisters room with my sis she'll be spending the night there and my stepdad has locked himself in the master bedroom. It's not the first time it's happened but....... There's too much going on in my life right now I just want it all to freeze for one moment and let me breathe, let me take control. I don't want to move, I don't want them to split up, I don't wanna live even farther away from my real dad then I already do now. I just want it all to .............stop.
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