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Could High school get any harder? I'm just a freshman, but I feel like I should be coping with high school better than I am. I feel akward to the point of confusion. I'm being pushed around by huge crowds and I only have too friends my age and we only became friends a couple days ago. in total I have four friends in high school, but they aren't very close friends. I guess that's what I get for transfering from what seems like a different country. (It's only two states away) i miss my old friends and my older school and I hate having to srtuggle to achieve what I had already achieved before I moved. Well I can't help that no and so I should stop whining. I just have to survive the next 4 years and then I'll be back with my friends and going to college. It's what I want, what I dream. It dream of goining to college and living to support myself and soon someone else. I won't get married until after college though and the guy I marry must have a job too. I'm going to be a writer, but I won't support a useless man. I love wolves and I guess I'm just feeling random today and I'm writing this to clear my head. I'll be doing this a lot now that high school had started. High school is filling my head and the only way I can see to realease the pressure is to write like this. Line after line. Word after word, putting down anything that comes to mind in order to clear my head and heart. It works very well and after I finish doing this I feel so much better. I'm feeling better already as I continued to type. I'm actually feeling so good that if I don't stop I might start feeling relaxed, and that's something I just cant do. Stress keeps me alert and at the top of my game. So I'll go for now.

Avaida_Dream