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Well, I need a way to vent a bit today So Here I am. It's cool because no one reads it anyway. Today was long... I'd be a good student if I put my heart into my school work, but I'm lazy. If I do good, then I'll have to work harder. After I wrote the paper that got me kicked out of my English class My parents thought about taking me out of that school and it was the most frightening thing that ever happened to me. Even though I don't like School itself, I've got a lot of good memories there. A few painful ones, but I'm don't want to forget the lessons that they held. I've had a shell against people I know in real life, for as long as I can remember because as I child, I was picked on. I even disliked my parents BECAUSE they meant something to me and that meant that they could hurt me.

Over time, I've softened my shell. I'm nicer overall. When I heard about leaving the school that meant to me that I'd never see the people that have made me Who I am anywhere near as often as I'd like. This little thing is dedicated to everyone who’s made me even the slightest bit happier, or nicer. It’s not much, but it’s all you’ll get for free. Here's to my friends, and to everyone who ever picked on me. I now know what it means to be in pain, to have no one I trusted and to watch friends I once depended upon drift away from me. It's because of all the s**t I've been through that I can be anywhere near as kind as I am now. For the first time in my life, I want to meet people, to talk to them even the people who would hurt others to make themselves feel better. I don't want anyone to be alone.

Though I know that I only half mean this because I doubt I'll ever get rid of the marks it's left on me. I'll always be afraid of people, to automatically fear new faces. If there is a god, He/She/It is one sick son of a *****.