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we used to be so happy for the first few months, till you told me bout the others girls you were screwing with. i asked you to stop but you said no it was only "role playing". was i one of the girls? am i just your toy you screw around with? do you sit there and laugh when i sit here cry? you tell me to leave you if i want but i don't cause i love you. you knew i would say such a thing and continue to tourcher me. one day i blow my stack and end our so called forever realationship. you sit there and laugh while you screw around with the other girls like nothing is wrong, while i sit in my room cutting away at my arm,then my wrist..then my throat. as i get rushed to hopsital my brother calls you and tells you what happend. you act worried but in your head you say it's just another one of her jokes. bryan says it's serious and her dying wish was to see you. when you hang up you laugh and play along with the joke untill you arrive at the hospital 2500 miles away to see my throat sliced up,my wrist cut up,my arms cut up. your jaw drops and tears start to form in your eyes. "i didn't know this hurt her so much" you say as you place a hand on my cheek. the doctors do their best to keep my heart rate up but so far no luck. you sit in the waiting starting to regret the things you have done. when they let you see me again my heart rate has gone up a bit but not enough. you place a hand on my cheek and kiss my lips ever so softly, i feel a wet tear of yours. "i'm sorry amelia" you whisper. i hear you voice as my heart rate starts to rise. you stand there holding onto my hand thinking in your head what an idiot you were and how you were going to prove to me that it was i you loved.