Work is the biggest factor right now an the next factor is seeing an knowing nothing will change as I can perceive it.
Alone some day...old as my health fades away...an fears knowing Im not as smart as everyone else.
As much as I dislike my father, he could "use" people an lie his way out of almost anything. •••••I AM NOT MY father.
While I will never be an angel, I will not go off lying to everyone an doing what he used to do so often to everyone.
An one day Ill be alone a kind old person rotting away till the world takes everything away when Im no longer able to take care of myself an pay bills an...failure.
Maybe if Im lucky Ill live to see the age my parents are if I can survive 30 or 40 more years.
If I should through miracles see my 100th Birthday it would be 2084...59 years from now...
Alone some day...old as my health fades away...an fears knowing Im not as smart as everyone else.
As much as I dislike my father, he could "use" people an lie his way out of almost anything. •••••I AM NOT MY father.
While I will never be an angel, I will not go off lying to everyone an doing what he used to do so often to everyone.
An one day Ill be alone a kind old person rotting away till the world takes everything away when Im no longer able to take care of myself an pay bills an...failure.
Maybe if Im lucky Ill live to see the age my parents are if I can survive 30 or 40 more years.
If I should through miracles see my 100th Birthday it would be 2084...59 years from now...
