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The b***h is back! It's been what about 4 years?
Quick recap, rly snappy...
Got a breast reduction, lost my mother to colon cancer, dropped toxic friends, came out as demiguy Panromantic demisexual (yes, a huge mouthful), and started on my journey of healing my trauma and stopped binge eating.
I learned I was autistic on top of being ADHD, which explains a LOT!
I learned how to longboard, kinda...Got flooded out of apartments twice! Finally hit critical and went into full BurnOut.
I got to my goal weight and now I'm trying to keep it there. I have very slow metabolism.
My niece is in college for sports conditioning, has a BF named Mal (musician), and got to go tubing with me for my bday this year. I got new tattoos, a septum piercing (which has healed over), and I have kept my hair mostly short. (Curly and thicccck) I ended up never getting certified since the test cost too much to take and I couldn't get in anywhere.I ended up being a cook for several years, but the chronic pain plus the sexual harassment finally got to me. Learned more knitting techniques, more fun exercises, and have mastered singing with an open throat. I got GERDS, take care of your stomach!!!!
Matthew and I are still married💚 We are full-time RV living in a valley next to a river. There are butterflies everywhere rn and bunnies can be seen regularly during the cool hours. Plenty of beautiful birds here, some I had never seen before in-person. We have been at this location for a year. Our longest RV spot! It's so quiet and peaceful here...plus a river for me to get into. I saw a river otter here only once, but have been looking for one ever since.
I have joined a book club here for neurodivergent folx, but it's still feels awkward sometimes. Mostly with just 1 person in particular...but I digress.
I have been doing activism for the past few years, as much as one with chronic pain can. :/ That has added to my burnout, so I am going to take a break next month from news media and media as a whole.
Fv¢k Trump, f~c‹ the IDF, save Sudan, save Congo....and send food to Gaza!
Uuuugh....it's painful to be so aware! Watching people's ignorance win evil's battles is infuriating and saddening.
Making plans to see if I can trace my lineage to Scotland or Ireland. Rn I'm stuck with my genealogy research. -_- Tried to find my husband's dad and t
THAT was a struggle. If that falls through my husband has construction experience and I have a ******** ton of different experiences to pull from for a job.
Make your escape routes now! They are making moves to keep us here in the US.
What am I doing? No one has heard from me in years and who will stumble on it before the events happen? It just burns my soul with injustice and sorrow, that I would think anything would help.
I'm demiguy pansexual demisexual who is AuDHD. I will not be okay staying here. We are currently trying to pay off an RV, while doing repairs/remodeling...so we currently broke as a joke.
Currents:
Fav color- dark greens
Fav book- Brave New World
Fav Tv show- The Good Place (1 of the BEST endings ever)
VideoGame= Fantasy Life I, Stardew, and Labrynth of Refrain
Anime = Jujutsu kaisen
TV Show = Lucifer
Books= Frankenstein (I know, finally), DragonQuest (so sexist), You're Fatally Invited (book club), and my one nonfiction is Algospeak.
Project= Green cloak with detachable hood, w inside pockets (for a masquerade wedding in October).......uuuuuuuuughhhhh(Good vibes that my hands won't turn to dust)
RV Project= Installing stones for the river path
Go-to Exercises- deep squats and upper back stretches
Comfort Food- Bean and cheese burrito or potatoes
Comfort Drink- Apple butter tea
If anyone will read this....scalding tea:
My narcissistic athletic bully of a brother is now a Christian. I call BS, unless he's a nationalist. He is the type...I can't fathom someone who almost killed his baby daughter from negligence is a loving Christian looking for redemption.
🤷🏻🤷🏻🤷🏻🤷🏻🤷🏻 Baffling
In other sad news since I'm in critical burnout, plus chronic pain I had to leave Yuffie with a friend. She has a best friend Chihuahua and rules the doggy daycare my friend runs at her house. She has an amazing garden and a nice yard. Lucky! I always felt so bad Yuffie being stuck in the RV on my really bad days, and being left behind on my super good days. (Lack of car and safe walking places for the dog)
I mostly walked a railroad track which would hurt her paws. My little ninja doggy is doing good, but I miss her so much. 😭😭😭 Exercise for harder without her, my anxiety support gone, and my little fetch helper couldn't assist. I gained weight, went through the 2nd worst depression of my life, and I'm...almost okay. It's been almost a year since I've been able to see her in-person. She's several states away and my husband works long hours with usually 1-2 days 'off'. Poor guy...
Lost my mom, my dog, and my neice out living her life (like she should), but my main support for my life is gone. The husband has been doing his best to be supportive, physically, that is. He doesn't have much emotional maturity, so he has not a clue how to help in that way. Typical Southern white man.... -_-
Maybe that's why burnout got so bad. That, plus a large life change. The ADHD was having fun, but the autism hated it.
It's an odd feeling. XD
I have rambled on enough and caught you up a bit.
Maybe I will post again? Hopefully sooner than a year.
Oh! I go by Orrin now. 😁 It means Green River. Rather fitting for me since I'm such a water bug. Heh heh.
Okay......BYE!!!!
 Zabethlyburn · Fri Aug 29, 2025 @ 07:19am · 0 Comments |
