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I have come to the realization that hating someone or something that has wronged your, or running away from your problems is the easy way out, what takes real strength of character is to forgive what has caused you pain and do your best to let it go.

Last night I was thinking of my grandfather a lot, and I realized that he went through a lot more than I ever could. He forgave the government for taking everything he owned away from him, and he worked to get it back, he forgave his wife for cheating on him and spent his life with her, he forgave his brother for stealing our ancestral sword from him. My grandfather was a great, strong and kind man, and I hope oneday to even be a shadow of what he once was. That is what I decided last night, and I knew that i had to forgive everyone who had ever hurt me.

I probably will never be as strong as my grandfather, but forgiveness is a start and it will start me on the road to healing. No matter what choices those who hurt me make with their lives, I have forgiven them and can now move on with my own life. I hope that they make the right choices and live happy lives of their own and if they need it I will be there to help them through adversity. Oneday perhaps what has been lost can be regained or at least salvaged, but right now I am still very unsure of my future and what I am going to do with my life. I do feel more liberated though now that I have let them know I have forgiven them. Yes I do still have anger inside me, but it has less control and eventually it will fade away to nothing at all.

Holding onto your anger and pain is just self destructive and in the end it will only hurt you more. I have realized that now and I hope that this epiphany will stay with me. Life seems a lot better now, and it's even a bright sunny day outside, I hope things continue to go well for me. I had a lot of bad thoughts today but now they seem like mere whisps in my head, life will go on no matter what we think or do. Oneday perhaps I will make my grandfather proud and do something with my life, but until then I shall do my best not to disgrace him or my family name any further, I am tired of failing at things and it is time to stop complaining and do something about it. Well anyways that's just my thought for the day, have a good one.
-Jamie