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yes thats right im broken all because of a guy..... i swore i would never fall for a guy that would do this to me, maybe he hasent *a glimmer of hope* but maybe he was a a** and i had him pegged wrong... who knows all i know is this.... one morning i come online and so does someone under his Im name.... i said hi baby..... he said hi... we need 2 talk... i want to break up.........

i didnt even know we were dating? i just knew that i liked him alot and he sayed he liked me..... i have always been able to see my future.... i thought i would be a old lady designing houses with her dogs... and i was ok with that.... untill i meet him..... i guess im typing all this for you Shinta_Urshima... but maybe you will never read this you may never know.... but if you do i need to you know even after my heart was riped in half... i still loved you with everything i had.... i will always love you.... you give me hope of living that the next day will be better then the last....its just wish full thinking im sure but i still wish to hope.... to love.... you sayed that you thought i would hake a good wife.... well i just want to know would you like me as your wife? or were you just stringing me along like a puppet.... were yoiu pulling all the strings??? did you cut the cord, let me fall and shatter to a million peices? if you planed it why did you have to pick ma as your victum? i loved you... i still love you... you are the only person i could ever see myself living the rest of my life with and now your gone.

Or maybe it was your brother that hurt me... he seems like the type... maybe you were to much of a chicken s**t to say it to me your self..... mybe i dont know why.... if you do read this and its not true please type something to show me that it wasnt a lie.... that you do love me..... or maybe i can just die.... no i will live for thats who i am..... but:

all i ask for is a reson why... why did it happen this way? do you really hate me so? or is this all one big joke? do you even care? do you give a damn? no i suppose you dont..... other wise i wouldnt hurt so.