This here i wrote when i was still in grade 8.
It was one of those times in life I felt that I was worthless and useless. I didn’t really know what was wrong. I was just so confused. As my grandmother from my mom’s side was approaching her death by every waking minute I feel lost. Those things I thought I could’ve done me no longer feel I could have. In m heart I prayed for her to hang on as possible. So I have more time to see her. When I graduate from high school she can give me a big congratulation. She was my favorite grandmother since I was little. I remember when I was younger I never liked my grandmother from my dad’s side because she was mean to me when I was younger. When I grew older I knew it was all a misunderstanding. When I was younger as bratty little kids can be I guess she thought I was annoying and worthless, but as I grew older she began to teach me lots of neat and interesting things like how to fold paper cranes. From that point on I treasured every moment I had with her because I know some day she would leave this world and head onto heaven. I’m still scared that I’ll lose both of my grandmother and I can’t hold on I don’t know what I’ll do. I lost both of my grandfathers before I even had a chance to meet them. I had a friend who once had a grandfather. I treated him like my very own. When he pasted away I was deeply hurt. I kept thinking what I was doing that very moment. Hoping it was something meaning-full. I hope I have something in life that I can accomplish such as passing the literacy exam so I can graduate to get my high school diploma, but I know one day when I find out my grandmother died..it’s going to hit me and it’ll hit me hard.
couple years later..this is a bit more recent a continuation
The phone rang at today, June 2, 2006 at 11:30pm. I scared me half to death because it was during night time and I kind of zone out at the time. She was hanging on just for us I am grateful, but sadly I have to say it's time for her to let go. She finally left go tonight. I miss her. My mom promised me I would get to see her tomorrow to say goodbye for the last time but I didn’t even have the chance. Now I’m left waiting for that day for the rest of my life. I’m such a bad granddaughter. Now all I can do is pray for her forgiveness. I’m so sorry grandmother that I didn’t get to see you. I miss you already=’[.
>>edit:sorry for the late blog i just came back from seeing what's left of her....her soul
>>edit2:You were born crying and everyone around you was similing, live your life so that when you die, you're similing, and everyone around you is crying
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