well sometimes you just have to leave it all alone. You just don't say anything about it in the hopes that all will repair itself in the end. Well i don't think that happenes any more. It isn't happening for me.
But i still shut up about it b/c feel the hope inside of me. I know that it won't be fixed but the hope hits me hard and it keeps me from anything. People don't always tell you things but sometimes...sometimes you just wish you had never met them for it.
Well i was informed of something and the person didn't tell me themselves. i think they had been avoiding it. It was never mentioned and if it isn't mentioined when i talk to them again i will bring it up.
no matter what my hope says i will and if they lie to me then i am going to be pissed. b/c they were either lying to my friend or lying to me. Well ******** it it doesn't matter anymore anyways. It's all....just there....and never going to be repaired.
Like i do in most of my entries i will refuse to name the person. why is b/c i(once again) am afraid of them reading this. This time though they will probably know it is them. I don't care.
If they ask me as to why i didn't tell them about this I will ask them why they didn't tell me about what i am talking about.
Oh well. If they don't tell me these types of things then i won't tell them. I'll just keep it all to myself form them and only talk to my one true friend about it. Nikki. She would listen. This time I will not be upsetted by this.
I am going to stay calm. I'm used to things like this and so ya know what. i'll do what i do everytime thhis happenes. I'll just take it all in bottle up my emotions and never let them out.
 heavens_akki · Wed Aug 02, 2006 @ 11:09pm · 0 Comments |
