~wow it's been ages sence I wrote last...way to long I might add. For so much has happened that I feal as if I'm going back to a life that isn't me anymore....but now that I read over my other thoughts....I realize that it's all the same me. Damaged and forgoten by the world she only wishes to blend in with. I've been thinking over the past days...about this empty fealing in my chest. I've got the one thing I've always wanted..and yet it's still there. My heart is yurning for something more then love, and I must find out what it is. For it's tareing me apart with each passing day...and I don't know how much longer I can last. My love can sense it even when I'm trying to keep it from him the best I can....and the thought of him unhappy because of me is enough to throw me into the depths of depression.....So now I ask of you yet another question. What dose ones heart yurn for when all their dreams have been forfilled?....Am I serching for a reason for the future?....or is my heart trying to tell my something about my life in the present?...~
{x Ashley x}
Evi-Chi Community Member 
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