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I just feel so hopeless, worthless, & useless sometimes. I just want to thrive but I'm stuck. I have no idea what to do with my life, I just have never seemed to fit into this world/society. This doesn't mean I would hurt myself ever tho, I want to live, but I wish I could thrive also. I wish there was jobs for me to do so i can help out with bills & have more stuff for myself, but I can never find something that I know would accept me & my limitations. I'm thinking of becoming a artist or crafter, but it will be maybe a year or a few before I can manage to get sales as my art/drawing isnt too good anymore. Maybe my crafting will be easier, but still I think that will take a while to grow a comfortable audience. I'm also hoping my boyfriend's voice acting stuff works out once he gets his demos done, but I still worry about feeling like a burden financially on him. He would do anything for me & has helped me a few times, I just would like to be able to ease the burden & also be able to get him gifts too some day. Idk. Thinking about this too much gets me spiraling & so sad, I just wish i knew what to do.