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Ugh... sick, and i just sneezed. Heh, not my keyboard. Anyway, it's almost christmas. What can one say not to sound like Scrouge. Um, nothing. My father overly decorated the house, making appear to be a beacon signaling mars. My mom is starting to get into that "holy s**t this needs to be the perfect christmas" mood. My brother is as annoying as ever. And finally me, there isn't to much to complain about. I'm just as mellow as usual i supose.
The usual feelings, kinda happy, kinda sad, kinda angry at the world in it's stupid dash towards ugly perfection; the basics. Also, unfortunantly, the holiday season does get to me. I am feeling unusually lonely, but thats normal for a single around this time of the year. Christmas and then new years, what a horrible season. Lucky me, i have my birthday on the 7th of January. So i get a little bit more celebration.

RADIO TIME

So, Kelly's in Arizona now. I hope she's having a good time. I think that has a lot to contribute to my lonelieness. Cause i had hung out with her for 3 or 4 days strait. It's almost like going cold turkey, with people. Unfortunantly i havn't been able to stop thinking about her. Not that it's a bad thing really, it's just that i honestly need to find someone for myself. The hard part is that she's so god damned perfect in my mind its hard. I compare everyone to her. EVERYONE, and they don't even come close. She's always asking me too, why i love her so much. It's kinda hard to explain.... so i think i'll do a rough draft right now.

Things i enjoy in kelly
1. her smile
2. her pale skin
3. the way she seems to have hips, even though she really doesn't
4. how her hands are so soft and fragile, but when she touches you, it feels... so powerful and relaxing.
5. her love for music
6. her usual open mindedness about alot of things
7. her body, oh god... an 11
8. her giggle
9. evil laugh
10. purly enjoying her self or a joke laugh
11. her sense of style
12. her legs
13. the way shes a clutz, but in a graceful way
14. the fact that she's as much of a contradiction as i am
15. she play ******** video games
16. how we give peanut butter and jelly hugs
17. her soft moist lips
18. she has the cutest freckles ever
19. the way her feet point in not out, it's really girlish and i like it
20. her pretty hair, its just fun to smell and pet.. kinda like a pet
21. her slightly sadistic sense of humor, matching mine of course
22. her deep deep deeeeep stare
23. her wonderful stories
24. how she always has something to talk about
25. how she cares so god damned much about everything, even if it is stupid
26. when she clings to your arm as you walk to the car or other places
27. how cute she is when she's playful, but in a calm way
28. when she's in her seductive moods
29. her overall sex appeal
30. when she act's and looks adult, but occasionally
31. she's a tomboy and can play rough, but she's also a girly girl and looks so beautiful
32. the sounds effects she makes
33. the fact that she meets the best people in the world
34. she plays D&D, YES
35. her belly
36. her, well, im a guy... her boobs
37. when she blushes, though it's rare around me
38. her love for... the unusual
39. she likes vampires
40. all that lord of the rings-esque stuff
41. she's kinda gothic, but likes to be happy
42. the way she sways what hips she has
43. her creativity with almost anything
44. her modesty
45. how when she kinda curls her toes and makes her leg perfectly strait, SEXY
46. she kinda seems masicistic, but not in an unhealthy way
47. she's a scorpio she "cant help it"
48. she's a good teacher
49. how when she lays on her side, and she's kinda twisted, it's almost like a roller coaster when you look at her
50. her favorite color is yellow
51. she's a "jill" of all trades
52. she try's to make everyone happy
53. she can kick your a**, and take care of herself
54. how spiritual she is
55. she hates religion
56. she want's children
57. when she wears tight pants, and it makes it look like she has a butt
58. how she wears a skirt, but not to much to make it boring
59. that there is a side of her that i still don't know about

thats alll i can think of at the moment, i wonder if that'll help a little.... meh. anyway, i'm off to find something to entertain myself until the 3rd or 4th of january till she comes back.