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My favorite MMO isn't working at the moment so I figured I'd take some time to write here. What is there to say. Nothing other then the usual beating of the dead horse. I'm kind of sad and content at the same time, kind of usual these days. Haven't been able to look into any medication yet, I've been looking at potential colleges to go to now that I'm gonna drop out of AIW. Trasnfer out rather, makes it seem so much more nice.

Kelly came over today after she got off work. I fed her. I like feeding her, makes me feel like I'm accomplishing something.

See it's statements like that, that make me feel like there's another personality in here with me, or something like that. What a freak I am. I need to get fixed, I think I should have been recalled years ago.... What the hell, it's a journal I can say whatever the ******** I want. Not like anybody reads this or comments.

I take that feeling back. I'm a bit wound up and agitated now I think.... no, not really. I'm confused, always have been. I hope to change that. Get some things strait. First off this maelstrom in my head and heart. I have to wade through all these conflicting feelings and thoughts, organize 'em, put 'em in a stew? No. Just need to better myself, and I think I'm going down the right path. Oh well... this journal is finished I think.

~Melly out.