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It's 4 days left till my birthday and I'm just trying to keep my self from going Mad with the anxiety. I'm two states away from my friends and I miss them like I would never believe. My birthday is coming and I'm really excited. I'm just on the computor now trying to find somthing to do. Somedays I have to admit I'm absolutly bored. Like I do now. I'm going to be fourteen but I'm still just getting use to thirteen. I want to be able to walk around and not be questioning myself and my sanity. I think i might be going crazy, it must be the curse of a writer. With ever story I write a charater from the story seems to appear in my mind and has a personality all their own. Look at me I am crazy, I'm talking about how my characters are in my head. One thing that is good is that they leave when I finish the story. So I am glad about that. I don't go outside very often and my tan is fading away. I have so many ideas and i want to go to school and learn more. I want to become an author and an actress, but sometimes I wonder, Am I a great actress because I create these character personalities in my head? I don't know. I create my first dream avi a little while ago and it's going to be forever before I can afford to buy everything. Mostly I'm saving up for the kimono, but the other things are nice to. I really want that Kimono. I'll write some more later. Bye