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lol Marge hates her job, poor babe. My Kiki, Coco, and Demonbow all have names. Kira, Boo!, and Kali-Yuga, respecitvly. I've decided if I see anyone I knwo at CCRNO, besides the people that have been there for the last 2 weeks, I will totally flip. Can you imagine sitting next to your BFF,4L and hearing someone say their name, and going "omg, i know him/her"? Yea, I'd freak out. lol, it'd be really bad, me freaking out with Erin sitting there. I'd probably blabber everything. Then she'd tell her mom and her mom would tell my mom, and my mom would get mad because I lied about who I've been talking to. Well, not completely. I was tlaking to several people most of the time. Sara Pizz, for one. Stefan, sometimes, and once Shadow. I like to have a few IMs going.
I've figured out what a big problem for me is. I don't think of conversations as being totally over and forgotten until I've got all the answers I want/can get. I'll remember stuff everyone else forgets. Which is why I have made myself look like an idiot sometimes. 2 days later, I'm asking someone a questioni and they don't even know what the hell I mean xd Yep, I am good at annoying myself.
But there is this underlying fear right now of a nightmare that I've had. I need to find out if it's a possibility. I sure hope not. It's one of my 2 last secrets that I've shared with no one and never will, unless it become apparent that it might happen. I had it the 1st time in 8th grade, and I was so close to telling someone. So close. Thankfully, I displayed some common sense. Why worry anyone with a dream? But when I had it a second time, when I had my other nightmare/dream come true in front of my eyes, I knew that I need to tell someone if it has any possibility of happening. I need to know, but I don't know who to ASK.
Oh, I'm not stupid. there is only one person reading this thing.
I'm writing a story. It's about these triplets, Jennifer, Emily, and Melinda, or Jenny, Emmy, and Melly, or Jen, Em, and Mel. They have dreams about the future, but each one has a different talent. Jen dreams of what will happen. Em dreams of the people involved, and Mel dreams of the time it will happen. Once they discover this talent, they start to see the future unfold before their eyes. But one night, Jen and Mel dream of something, but Em doesn't dream at all. They don't know who is going to be involved, and the clock is ticking! The only person who could know is someone who refuses to talk to them. Em figures out that this other person... wait, that gives it away! I'll be posting it as I write it. It's called "JEM" lol
Crud, I can feel my happiness leaking away, replaced by worry. Funnily, being told that I'm hated is what made me happy rofl Yea, that's never gonna change. I'd bet money on that. I'm hard to like, impossible to love, and easy to hate forever. But at least I know the truth better than most.
"Nothing you say today is gonna bring me down."
"To be on the edge of breaking down and no one's there to save you." or over it, lol.
~nepie
 nepie · Sat Jul 08, 2006 @ 11:00pm · 0 Comments |
