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This is just something that was on my profile. I just moved it.

“What do you want??”
I was asked one day in January by an ex. When the question was asked I didn’t know what to make of the question, seeing as the question seemed to come randomly.

But a few weeks ago, being it June now, the question popped back up into my mind.
What do I want?? I know what I want out of life, I do. I want to run my own businesses, own land, and do quite a few other things before my life is over. But now, after some thought, I know what the question was directed at: Our relationship.

What do I want relationship wise… I’ve honestly never thought about it, mainly because I never had to, never thought I had to. I thought when I got into one things would just fall into place. But know, I can say I know a little better. But to answer the question still won’t be easy because I still haven’t an answer for it.

What I have come up with however for the question is this.
I want something stable, something I know is going to be there; even through my drama. I want someone who can take, and wants the family life, which I do: marriage, kids, and the house (no picket fences though).
I want someone who can get to me. Some one who can finally break the shell I knowingly house myself inside, someone who can accept me for me and bring out the best of me.

I’m close to my family. It’s the way I was raised. I couldn’t see myself with out my family they’re my support for everything I do.

What I want in a relationship is stated above a family of my own merely extending the one I already have, creating one of my own: A friend, a love, lover, and a partner through life and death.