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Heh, i remember the last time i made a journal entry on here. It was back before i left for Japan for the Christmas holidays. Back before the world went to hell, well my world went to hell at least.

I've come to realise though, that if given the right scenario, i can make myself fall in love with anyone, at any time. Same goes for any one else out there. If someone comes up to you, and presents you with their own affection, and it is in fact for you. While initially you think nothing of it, eventually it'll keep popping up in the back of your mind. And then, you'll wonder 'what would it be like if i were with them'? If it so happens that you're current in a relationship with another person, this act of affection could very well mess things up.

Anywho, with that technical drivel out of the way. I think i'm gonna be taking a break from gaia. As i think about all that's happened to me through gaia, i'm not sure i want to stay on here anymore. How many have i hurt now through my rps? Madison, Aimee...Zoie? All of them i hurt, while not intentional, a hurt is still a hurt. This break in the end may turn out to be me quitting gaia permanently.

Mk! Onto my OTHER topic. Hehe, i love rambling like this. Long distance relationships. What the ******** is up with them? I really don't get it. Okay sure, there's a CHANCE that you and whomever your entangled with will live happily ever after, but that's it. a CHANCE! Case in point those who get into relationships over a medium such as gaia. Now think, think about this for just a sec. The 'relationship' you've formed with this person while still being in a relationship, isn't anything more than a fantasy. The moment you lose acess to your computer, or gaia. That's it. The relationship you tried so hard to forge, is nothing more than a memory. More over, what happens when someone else shows up in your life. Someone, you can touch, feel and hold? Where you don't have to read what they say, but actually hear and see it. Eventually something real will come along, and one of you will say those cursed words. 'We need to talk." And trust me, nothing good has ever followed those words, when in a relationship. Why am i saying all this? Cause, it's what i've sadly had to learn.

While in a multitude of realtionships over gaia. I realised that, the moment all the PMs and the rps we we're in disappear, our relationship would vanish. Same goes for those who communicate strictly over msn. Delete your msg history of the person you were talking to and POOF all gone. There would be no trace of that ever happening. Mind you this is all my perceptions on this entire thing. I've known a whole bunch of people who've had successful long distance relationships, and have lived happily ever after. To bad i'm not one of them. If anything i'm quite jaded on the whole idea of it.

In my eyes. Long distance relationships, DO NOT and CANNOT work. Only if you've physically met prior to this all, will it ever work. It's just to easy to fall in love over the internet, and in some cases, these type of relationships can leave the most painful scars of all.

On a bit of a sidenote. I'm writing my final Sanctuary Story. While my first ended...kinda open ended. And the next two were never posted. My final story is entitled. Sanctuary of the Sky: Requiem of a Fallen Judge. Look out for it. Ciao.