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So I've decided I kinda wanna start keeping a public journal. A way to note my thoughts and feelings without all the fuss of posting random Bs in the CB and getting slammed but still public enough maybe one day someone will open a conversation with me. Its a mixed bag of chips here honestly. I want to talk to people, but I don't want to be attacked for everything I say ... JadeRabbitEmperor · Tue Jan 08, 2019 @ 07:35pm · 4 Comments


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	Had the last 3 days off and I've spent absolutely no time with my wife. She's worked all of 8 hours in the last 72 hours. then wonders why I'm pissed off and depressed. Going for a walk because FML ... Offline JadeRabbitEmperor · Community Member · Sun Jan 13, 2019 @ 11:44pm


	You ever had a point in your life where you "wanted" to do something but you had absolutely no emotional drive or interest in doing it? It's a weird contradiction I know. I want to post but every time I sit down to start writing I lose all ability to concentrate or focus my creative thoughts or to even really care that I have people waiting on my replies. I tend to "forgot" what I was doing and start watching Youtube or playing a game. Idk I just know I want to post but can't force myself to do it ... Offline JadeRabbitEmperor · Community Member · Mon Jan 21, 2019 @ 06:59pm


	Haven't made a post, or talked to a friend, or done anything besides play games for nearly a month. I miss the days when I could hit someone up and be like "Yo im coming over" and even though we both worked, we had time and energy to hang out ... now I can't even get people to text me. Offline JadeRabbitEmperor · Community Member · Wed Feb 06, 2019 @ 02:33pm


	So I went through a few version of this post before I figured out what I wanted to say. Weird huh? That I have to hold this one-sided conversation with myself to figure out WTF I want? Anyway here goes. So I wrote a post ... well, most of one... but I have no intention of posting it in PER. I'm going to leave PER and not look back. I'm going to save my posts, info, and whatever else I need then I'm going to move into PDU. Its already been well into a month since I last posted so eventually they'll kick me for being inactive I'm sure. If that happens I'm unsure I'll be able to get my stuff. Vig and Law prob wouldn't let me back in to grab it. Kip, Wolk, and Spec aren't active enough to help and anyone else has never really spoken to me. SO I should cut ties and collect my stuff while I can. After that, I'm going to work on PDU and solo my Rp, my way. I mean I don't have a reason not to? I've been solo for nearly 2-3 years aside from the rare moments that last all of maybe a week or two. This will let me make my items, and whatever else I want and do whatever I want free of someone telling me I can't for some assinine reason. I'll have the creative freedom iv craved and that's held my muse back for years. At least I hope ... I don't expect anyone to ever join me. No ones ever shown interest in anything iv ever done so I really shouldn't expect that to change. Now watch someones reading this from PER and will message me about it lol Offline JadeRabbitEmperor · Community Member · Thu Feb 14, 2019 @ 06:43pm

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I will never know how to explain what it's like to be so suddenly overwhelmed by everything around you with no explanation why. To get so frustrated with the simple things you've dealt with all day but are now 10x more impactful. To feel suffocated and surrounded...

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