I think i was going after the wrong things for long enough. I tried to make friends with folks here for way more time than i should. With ... less than desirable results. I wasted time not only mine, but others as well. For what? For 5 minutes of small talk before getting long, soul-crushing, radio silence. I know, with time zone diffrences, personal matters and everything of the sort, stayin in touch is hard. and for me, being a continent away from majority of people here... it's way too hard. Too much effort for no pay-off. If i put a tenth of attention i put, for example on gaia, into meeting someone... I would probably have significant other by now... heck i might even got married.
Will I manage to stay faithful to my conviction? or will i crawl back into this pointless routine tommorow? I can't tell by now, but i sure hope the changing point starts now.
[Written in rageful clarity]
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My brain wants to scream, but Society won't listen.
Sometimes i will just write stuff here, that i want to share.
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