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June 19, 2006
Aystyn IMed me last night and then called me. We talked for a while... I never have much to say to him honestly. I feel like anything I say is going to sound stupid. I don't know why he is so interested in me, and seems to think interesting, or amazing, or anything like that. Because I'm just a boring person like anyone else, if not more boring. I dunno what to do about him either, since it's pretty certain now things are getting better with me and Kaz again. Which I'm relieved about. I just don't know what to say to guys that like me. It was a lot more easier when Kaz really seemed like he loved me. Well there's nothing wrong with talking to him. Kaz talks to other girls, which annoys the hell out of me because he talks to them for the wrong reasons. So I can't feel bad about talking to this guy. But he wants to go places and hang out with me and stuff, and I'm with Kaz and I love Kaz, but I don't want to make Aystyn feel bad. So I don't know. The thing about Aystyn though is he'll talk to me and then disappear for a while. He pretty much disappeared for two weeks, I barely saw him online and didn't hear from him, of course part of that time I was avoiding him because of Kaz. He apologized about it but I dunno... He doesn't seem like he has very much time. Right now Kaz wants me to make him happy, so I'm just trying to do that, I think it's working some. Jon is back and of course Ivy just had to make a chat. Amazing how she didn't make any while he was gone. I made some but convienently made them at times when only certain people were on so I could have nice calm, sex free, immature free chats. So yeah all the same old crap that's talked about was talked about today, and I just hardly said anything because I'm just over these conversations. They just annoy the hell out of me. At least I was able to talk to Kaz in IM some and he didn't go all crazy. That's another thing I don't like about chats. Kaz doesn't like to talk in IM when there's a chat but luckily he did today, if it's about private things he sometimes will unless he's mad. There's just certain things I can't talk to him about in front of other people, especially people who will just make stupid haha comments about it. Other than that, I went over to Jenna's earlier to watch a movie, but her mom kept getting mad and then my mom actually came over and started complaining to me about my computer, and her computer, and a bunch of crap so I had to run home to keep her from messing with them. The movie was almost over too but no I couldn't stay and see the end. @.@ Since my computer wouldn't let me online today I had to use my mom's and she doesn't like that but she let me at least. She just gives me problems about it sometimes. Jenna came over later and we watched the end of the movie and then just talked and stuff until she had to go home.
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