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Has the years come and go the world becomes more confusing me and it tells me that I am the one that needs to let go of my past and move on to a better life and stop trying to be like everyone else and just be yourself . But me I find it hard to be myself when I have people telling me what i should do and how I should do that one thing . It is hard on me sometimes but I find a way to be happy and free .Only I fine that is when I am writing in my journal alone in the dark and it is hard to not hear that screamming of my family fighting .But I get use to it and then I find away to break free of all of that . And that is great to me then me and my family get along and then after a while people start to fight and I go out side and sit alone and just talk to my great grandmother and grandfather and my older sister that died when she was just a baby and my aunt that past away I talk to them and they understand whats going and then I think to myself life is good when you can talk to your family that is dead and they can understand and it feels like they are right be side you telling you it is going to be okay we can get through this to together and then I start to cry and the wind blows I feel that they are here with me live and saying to me that dont be scared to love any one and dont be scared to try things . And then I think that I got a good family and then I start to cry more .Then I say to myself I am not alone in the confusing world .