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June 10, 2006
Today was better, thank goodness. I'm still worried though. I was finally able to talk to Kaz, and find out exactly why he was mad at me. So now I can do something about it. He felt like he couldn't be with me because his friends didn't like me and complained or something. Yeah I wasn't nice to some of them. Although one in particular was the one who started things, not me, but I apologized to them all. I haven't gotten a response from anyone except Scott yet. He said he was sorry too for all the things he'd done to me, that day when we were yelling at each other on the phone. I actually feel better now that I've apologized to people. The person I'm worried about the most is Leowen though, since I seriously don't know what his problem with me is. I didn't do anything to him, and he started hating me. Of course after that I did do stuff, because he did stuff, but I apologized to him too, even though I hate him. He's really the only person I hate. I don't know how he's going to react to it either, I don't know if he'll even take it seriously. He's not a nice person, and not just to me, I've seen him be rude to people he doesn't even know. So he's the only one I resent being nice to. But maybe it will work, who knows. Everyone else deserved an apology though. I just hope it's good enough for Kaz. It seemed like it was when I told him that's what I was going to do. But Scott was nice and talked to Kaz about it too, to help convince him to get back with me. So I'm really thankful for that. I always thought of him as a rude person, so I was surprised. I'm never going to make fun of him again or anything like I used to. Jon is still getting on my nerves. Jenna made him mad again and he was saying he was going to try to find a girl for Kaz or something. I'm so sick of him. What Jenna says isn't my fault, and he needs to stop trying to mess with my life because of what she says. I hate telling her to stop doing things because I feel like I'm being really mean. I hope she isn't mad at me because she got offline after that but she had been having computer problems anyway. But Jon thinks I have control over her or something. Like I tell her to stand up for me, or insult Jon, or whatever else, and that I can just make her stop doing it too. I'm not responsible for other people, what she does has nothing to do with me, just because she's my friend.
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