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Well.... today was my first day at work! sweatdrop It wasn't so bad, I guess. I never really wanted to get a job, but hey, when the parentals say you have to, then you pretty much have no choice. I didn't do much and the job is going to be fairly simple. It's no big deal really. I would just rather spend my time waiting by the phone for my baby to call me from Jacksonville, AL. It really sucks not being able to see him all summer. crying I wish I could be with him. It's like I'm living here in a strange place without him here with me. And... I still feel so bad and deeply embarrassed about what happened on Sunday. Wait, you're probably wondering what happened on Sunday, aren't you?
Well.... here goes. But, I must warn you, it's pretty bad. On Sunday I went to Jack-State with his parents to go and see him while he had a bit of time off. Well... we ended up sneaking off into one of the empty rooms in the back of one of the buildings that they rehearse in and... well...let's just say we became somewhat involved with each other. About half way through what would have been a wonderful visit, I just so happened to look down. What I saw was the most horrifying thing ever. During the middle of our little romp in each others pants I had apparently um... well... started my period. Yeah. I told you it was bad. It was everywhere and especially all over my khaki shorts. I had to send him all the way up to his room to bring me a pair of his shorts untill we could go to the store so I could by some more. We both felt so bad and the sad thing is that I think he felt worse than I did, and believe me, that's saying something.
If there can be an upside to the story I guess that it would have to be that I was so happy that he wasn't really grossed out by it. Well... if he was, he didn't show it. That made me feel a little bit better any ways. But all in all, it wasn't really a good day. We didn't even get a proper chance to say goodbye to each other. I guess you could say that our visit didn't really satisfy our need to be near each other. I do long for his return. I miss him so much.
Enough of my psycho-babble-bullshit. I'm thirsty! cry