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well readers my life might be over soon i am dying i was to a specaliest they picked up some things wrong inside me and well they said i might not live to see the end of my brothers hight school graduation if i dont get some more tests done and things whtich is not that great its die or hope they dont give me needles so if i have to chose bring n the needles, even tho i dont feel that theres any thing left for me to do in this world i dont want to die right now because i want to see my family after 7 years and if getting more tests done means i can be with them x-mas well i will do it.

the worste part of it i was told was that i might be dead by november at the latest, which is not a great feeling to know but theres good news my odds for making it are 30% was a number that i was told i am going to find out what the internal damage is in a few days then i will keep you all posted well till then all of ya keep your selfs out of troble and stay safe, and for my frineds no phone calls because i was not allowed to tell any one about this yet my mom is crying her head off about it, ym brothers and sister dont know any thing and i am scared because i might not even be able to see them i guess all i can do is hope and pray and take thins slow well good bye all.