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I feel so lonely, in a world so apart from mine. It's like screaming and no one hears. I put up walls so I won't get hurt. No one knows I have them up. Cause I hide from everyone. So that no one will ask me question of how I'm feeling. I don't really like talking about my feelings. I try to a void the whole thing about them. If I was to tell my real feelings, they are very much painful to me. I would cry all the time, without no one knowing it. The most pain of all, is not having a guy around to understand me. But it's also hard for me to get close to them, with out thinking they want something more. It's so hard moving on from the past, cause I'm still a bit stuck. Without people knowing it. I'm really good at hiding things from the world. I guess that's how God made me. Plus I've lived in a world they don't know of. Cause I really wanted him to make his own chose, I guess he did. That he didn't really want to be with me at all. All I was to him was just like the rest of the world, profit for their living. People would get selfish when ever I moved in with someone, that wasn't Christian. And they would try to drain me out like a rag. I did try to save a lot of their souls, but they have to make their own choses in the end. crying cry cry ("Jesus Christ knows everything!" wink