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I wish I could erase last week and start it over and do everything right. Somehow it just started out crappy and got even worse as we ent along. Monday was ok it was just a typical day I was happy with it until my buddy Tyler told me and his friends got high. Tuesday was a little worse but I hung out with my buddy Tyler. He was the first one to tell me he got searched and everything and I really like hanging out with him. Wednesday was boring and dumb. Thursday it got bad. Tyler and his friends got really high and one of my girlfriends asked me to skip 5th cause she was really high. I felt bad about skipping and I felt as if I was going to get in trouble. When I got home I was sick and wanted to die so I cut myself. (I've done it before). Next day I wanted to cry. It was so bad I couldn't believe it. My friend had broke up with her boyfriend and asked me to skip 5th again. So I did I had then got sick in 5th and it was all hell when my mom was called down to the office. I didn't get in a lot of trouble but, the worst part I have to face my teacher tomorrow. I'll just ignore her I guess, but I sit in the front. Saterday I went shopping and had my cousin come over and spend the night. I was online talking to Tyler and I told him that I had cut myself and he tells me to stop and he kept telling me that he loved me even when we wern't talking abot me cutting myself. I told him he said he loved everyone he said her hated everyone and only loved about 3chicks and I was one of them. I feel so out of it.