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May 10, 2006
Everyone just has to get in my business. I try to keep this stuff in IM, but Kaz drags it into the chat. Last night, this stupid girl was studying with him and I told him not to study with her. Of course now everyone is up in arms about that. How dare I tell him that! Nevermind that he's said how she's so hot and has big boobs and how I'm average. I know I'm not good looking but he just rubs it in. He can at least have the decency to not hang around her. Jon was in the chat while this was going on, and now tonight he told Ivy. There's absolutely no reason for him to tell her, she wasn't there, and it isn't her business, so then she complained about it to me. And she says she's not mad at me, fine, but she sure acts like it and when people get that way I just don't feel like dealing with it. And she had to bring up old crap about me liking Ralph a really long time ago before she got together with him. It's not like I like him anymore, he's her boyfriend and I could care less, and I have Kaz anyway, and I love him. If I didn't I wouldn't be putting up with all this garbage. So of course now he's mad at me, and I have to do something absolutely awful for him to quit being mad. Added to Jon and Ivy harrassing me about him. Everyone always says I need to trust him because I'm in a relationship with him, but how can I? When he says the kinds of things he says to me, when he's more attracted to other people and calls me stupid and doesn't like it that I'm not good at video games. He needs to show me I can trust him. And how everyone can tell that he only wants me for sex, and I don't know what to do about it when he comes here. I don't want to have sex yet, but if I don't I think he'll find someone else, which is why I don't want him hanging around girls at all. I can't even talk to him because he has to clean his stupid brother's room, which is rediculous. I'm just glad he's finally home, and away from that awful place and awful people.
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