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Hello Gaia. I normally like to keep things bottle up, but I feel like I am going to bust. I guess this is the downsides of falling for your best friend. So here I go! I have been almost a year since I broke up with my boyfriend. We are still good friends, and we talked like every day, but now it has stopped. I am okay with that I understand people are busy, I need to get stuff done any ways. Never the less I can't help but feel a bit sad/upset/disappointed. Maybe because i told him that i would have sex anymore till I am married [because i don't want to deal with drama and it would be nice to have someone love me without the physical intimate part being a main deal] or is it because he thinks I am going to fly away because i am doing pretty well-ish or maybe he was to get his s**t done so he can get back together with me [wishful] or find out about himself. He had warn me about he might start dating again. Of course I am stupid and being the supportive friend mistakenly even gave him fun date ideas. I understand that nobody is entitled to get back together with someone, and if you like someone they don't have to like you back. [I would like, but that is the loneliness and fear talking. Put i don't like myself and am not ready to date again, at least with him.] BUT FEELiNG THEY SUCK AND I DON"T LIKE THIS. better get to bed have a busy day tomorrow.. I know I shouldn't miss him i don't understand love but i can help it. These feelings are just what they are... You can very forget your first love huh...