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Today was not an average day... I have finally got over all the strange injuries and illnesses that I have had as of late... But now the darkness settles in. It was not the fact that I was physically sick, but the fact that I am indeed mentally sick. I finally went to the doctor, they said there was nothing wrong with me other than the fact that I do not take any meds for mental health issuses... I think that, that hurt me more than ever finding out that I was going to die due to physical problems... neutral I don't think I have ever tried not to cry so much in my life. At first I did not know what to think, then it started to sink in that my body became addicted to the meds that I was on that previous year. I think I became broken right then and there. I was now a slave of man made sedatives... Darkness roamed over my head... I prayed for hours that God would make this all go away, but it never did. I have been on these meds for about 3 days and have just been empty... I don't feel anything anymore... I know that God has plans for me and that he knows what is best. Maybe I will feel better soon... After all no one is ever happy about meds right? Always think positive right? wink