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I'm silent because I'm me
I'm silent because there are no words to choose
There are no words to describe how I feel
I'm silent because I'm dead inside
Because all I ever wanted was to be free
There are no words in the world to describe how the pain just can't come out
Because I can't cry
The tears I've emptied so long ago
Those many nights of childhood fear and pain
The emptiness of my soul
There's nothing more in the world that I want
I just want to go home
But there is no home where I belong
My mother is insane and my father is a drunk
I'm silent because the words I have not said can not set me free
The words I will not say couldn't be undone
For all I ever wanted to do is scream
Scream for all those nights he tortured me
All I ever wanted was to go home
Where everything is calm and quiet
But, No
I come home to mold in the walls
And my father consistently yelling at me to get him a beer
It's just not fair
Home is not a home where you are not happy and safe
Silent as a lamb
As I sit in my room and wait for the fight
Over my grades
About money
About pain
But, No
They drag me in
With knives on the table
And raised voices on the floor
And I'm silent
I'm silent because all I want to do is scream
For all of those lonely nights
And all of those dreadful fights
As they scream at me
Because all I ever wanted was to drift to sleep
And wake up at home where it was all just a dream
Instead, I'm stuck in this ******** nightmare
Where all I can do is bleed
Silently, blissfully
As my heart starts to bleed out
And they yell at me for all the chores I've already done
And I'm silent
For all those dreams I used to have
Blissfully, silently
As my soul starts to fade away
They cause me pain, but it's not their fault
Because I'm an inconvenience
And I'm silent
For all the wishful thinking
Of going home to a melody
My wrists are my tears for all of my fears
That will not go away
And my screams turn to tears and it all seems to bleed away...