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Well, I found out I might not be able to come back to school. The same day of my most important midterm! I was devastated, but still dragged myself to lab.

They passed out the quiz, and I could not concentrate. I started crying and left the room. Guess who followed me? Zane heart I was so surprised and embarrassed. There I was, crying my eyes out in the hallway with Zane next to me, trying to comfort me. It was comparable to a dream come true- leaving a room, crying, having a guy follow you out to comfort you, show you he cares... This should have happened with Edwin but for some reason it didn't...

My theory is that Zane left to talk to me first, THEN told Edwin. Either way, Edwin came to talk to me at least 5 minutes after Zane left. If only me and Zane were in private... Why does he have a girlfriend!? Why do I date Edwin!? Zane also let me leave class early and said he'll do all the work! I can't tell if views me as a friend or actually cares!

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Wow, so I just came back from a smoke break outside and Zane saw me and sat with me. At the time, I was actually tearing and of course Zane comes by to sit and chat! Moral of the story: We kissed! He didn't even mind my smoke breath. I'll explain:

I was sitting alone, tearing and smoking. Out of nowhere, Zane comes out and sits next to me, asking if I'm feeling better. I say yes, and he tells me I'm a horrible liar. I look at him with tears running down my face, he smiles, and puts his arms around me. He begins caressing my arm as I wipe my face in his chest. I realize what's happening and look up at him to say, "Won't Jordan be mad? And what about Edwin?" He smirks, makes a 'shhh' noise and holds his finger up to my lips. As sad as I was, his gesture somewhat aroused me.

So I smile up at him and he squishes me into his body using his arm. Next thing I know, his pointer finger is below my chin, pushing my lips against his. In a complete daze, I kiss back, fully enjoying the moment.