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Sk8er boy
Ever heard it? It was real popular 3 or 4 years ago. For 2 weeks straight, it was on the same radio station at 6:15 every morning. It was my alarm station, so I heard it every single morning. <3 <3 <3
Damn, no wonder. omg, I never realized... it had to have been... my reasoning was all wrong. It wasn't punishment. It was because it was the only way to keep myself in balance. I've become such a chipper and involved person at school, unlike before when I was in the shadows. So, my mind was trying to save itself. It can't deal with all the happiness. It needs the pain, the darkness. I can't have that! It's not necessary to be consumed by the darkness in secret while I'm laughing and smiling with everyone else. omgomgomgomgomgomg. Now what do I do?!
No one's going to understand. Heck, no one's even going to believe me! Doesn't matter who I tell. I could walk up to any one at school and they're not going to believe what I'm telling them about myself. But I can't stop it either. No one notices. My mom saw it once, but she assumed it was a cat scratch. Sure mom, it was the cat.
"He was a boy; she was a girl. Can I make it any more obvious?"
~nepie
 nepie · Sat Apr 15, 2006 @ 10:48pm · 0 Comments |
