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Well, today I was seriously distant. I felt overly depressed, unfeeling, and virtually unreachable. I felt pain, and yet, it was just numb...
Scott Anderson punched me in the face. I wasn't telling him where Monika was, and so he saw fit to deliever punishment upon my jaw, from which no evil had escaped today. I am fortunate that there was no damage. I spent a good few hours going through inspection from my dentist and my mother, checking for any loose or fractured teeth. Thank the fates that I didn't suffer that misfortune.
Brent was utterly stressed. He called me on the phone about one of my friends and how they had disappeared on him and he in turn had to go. I was worried as well, even though I was incapable of showing it today.
I forgot my medicine. Usually I'm not this far down the rabbit hole, but today I was utterly distant and I didn't like it. I don't choose these feelings when they come, and I can't shake them.
The revolving caroselle of my moods are generally as follows: Distant, Apathetic, Hyper, Lusty, Overly moody, slightly agressive, happy without a reason, and sorrowful.
I usually have control of these emotions, and I come across as generally normal most of the time. These are usually just 'flavors' or 'filters' of my moods.
((Sad to say, you can compare them to PMS... *sighs* A girl will be terribly moody, but she can be happy at the same time. She just has the mood filter overshadowing her mood, that's what you can compare me to. Thank god I'm secure...no?))
Seeing that one person who always cheers me up gave me the first smile I've had all day. Unfortunately, my father came home and interrogated me about my jaw and how I got it. All for the best, I hope she gets plenty of rest and feels better as soon as possible.
 Keoteki · Thu Apr 13, 2006 @ 04:26am · 2 Comments |
