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- ↺ What Should I do?
All I do is push
Push and pull at things
until they break
or run away.
once their gone
all i can do is cry
cry over it all
as it starts again
A realization is made.
what we seek is perfection.
we push and pull
to try to obtain someone's ideal
its not till now that I see
that it's you.
Only you can appear in front of me
like this
this full color illustration
ink lifted from the pages
of my perfect fairy tale story
Then I think
How can I define this moment.
Only one word forms.
Four letters
Two consonants
Two vowels
one hard hitting syllable
this word is love.
it makes me weird
it makes me afraid
but of what?
Finding out i'm someone i don't know
or of
taking a risk at something new.
there's always that chance at failing
So then I start to worry
Now that this perfect image is finally mine
i put up walls
i put on a facade
hoping that nothing goes wrong
but you,
only you see through it
then all that's left of my secret dreams
are shards, slivers, splinters
Everything shatters to pieces
Just like before.
Just like last time
So I start to search for a gleam of light
that might be hidden in the shrouds of darkness
that surround me
when what I should have done
was told you what I really felt
I should have said "I love you"
Then everything would be alright.
It stings a little, deep inside
nobody ever taught me how to say goodbye
nobody taught me that it would hurt this much
to see you leave
especially after the mistakes I made
What should I do?
when all i do is push
push you away
I'm out.
I can't figure what it was like
before I met you
and now my dreams make me feel alone
So alone.
Everything is gone
Just like before,
Its cycle finished
spitting me out to hang myself out to dry
the tears that soak my face
What Shall I do?
