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so i kinda figure that somethings going to go wrong in this situation....
my friend told the guy that i like that i like him and after that she told me to just go for it. so i did. i walked in front of a car blindly and hoped my knight in not so shining armor would come to save me.(theoretically speaking of course) but to my suprise hes actually concidering it.
in reality i asked him if there would be a chance in hell that i could be his girlfriend which basically was me stepping in front of a car... but now the question is, will he let me get killed or will he save me from the moving vehicle?
of course in my heart im PLEADING that he will say yes but im still scared... my mind is telling me im just some fat, overly dramatic and shallow b***h. sadly.. im starting to agree with my mind... i mean every time i look in that stupid mirror i want to cry and i always ask myself, why me? why was i "gifted"(so to speak) with this shitty matabilsm that doesnt let me lose weight no matter how hard i try? sad
******** you mirror... thats all i have to say... :/
please say yes