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Alright i did this to myself. I fell for an amazing person and let it get the better of me. To all u people who think i did this on purpose, i didnt. and to all the people who think i tried to hurt him, i could never. But how are you suppose to love someone if u cant wake up in the morning n see them right next to you? How am i suppose to show my full love for someone if i cant physically touch them. You can't.
John i care about you so much and i love you so much, it kills me to know that ur upset. I always knew from the tinychats that you where that special someone. We could talk for hours and even when we where exhausted we talked more. i hold that so special and ill never forget it. You will always have a special place in my heart till the day i die. The only thing i ask is u try to find a girl n get married n have kids n have a life. This would kill me inside but i know you have to live, and i do to. I am not gunna take down my avi art or you next to me, or the date we where together bc thats how much i still love you. And i was never so happy in my life, truely happy.
He will always be my prince charming.
And im just happy i found him even if we cant be together, knowing that he is there in the world makes me very happy.
I love you John
And i kno for as long as im on gaia i will never have anyone more special than you.
No one can replace you heart