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Well... I havn't posted in a long time lol. Just thought I'd vent. No one else seems to actually care... All I see in peoples eyes when they look at me, not good enough, not pretty enough, can't do anything, whore, useless.... All I have is my friends, who I thank God for everyday but... even the closet of friends still make me feel alone... The one person I look up to and admire... well they seem wishy washy... one moment they love me to death then the next they don't understand my feelings and make me feel like.... maybe they don't love me. I always need reassurance, I know I have a low self esteem. I always think "my hair isn't as long and pretty as hers" or "Im so flat chested" (and it really doesnt help when I have someone (some people) always telling me that) or "i cant sing like that" "im not pretty enough for him..." I never feel good enough, always trying to be better and right when i feel like im finally... good enough, someone or something throws me back into my self pity... I just pray that things work out. For now, im gonna just put on my mask and try not to bother people with my problems.
~Kaitlin