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When I stay awake tonight, I still wonder about you. It's been a long time, and lots of things have changed. Things continue to change, and I'm exeriencing a great turn around in my life. I feel hope again, and I'm fine being alone again, trying not to be dependent...

I'm fighting for myself, and fighting to find happiness divine in myself.
Everyone's afriad for me, yet there are some that aren't. I'm happy taking a break from school, and to cease from breaking my own heart. My eyes are open and awake in the world, and food tastes better now. All that inward pressure is no longer pulling me down as much. There are many who understand, and there are many who just refuse to. It's all about making money, no matter how much it diffuses you. But what is money without a heart? Without happiness? Without food tasting good?

I'm no longer going for the medical field...I'm going for the arts and communications. I'm terrified of the road ahead, but I'm determined to take it far. I want to become a better person, and fulfill the goals in taking my break-in tending to my heart. I'm gonna be there for my mother, and I'm going to help my father get well. I'm going to cook, I'm going to clean, I'm going to go out and breathe the air that's clean. I'll drive my truck and make close friends-never letting go of how precious it is. I'm not going to be filled with my troubles so much...

I'm not the same as I was...I've gone through things that have taught me alot. Learning from the pain to guide a future one day...