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I cannot believe how blind i was. I was feeling as if my feeling for chantal weren't as strong, HOW WRONG WAS I!! It took some hard thinking, and strong emotions, to realize that what i thought was not how it really was. My friend told me how guys express their feelings different than girls do, and maybe thats why i felt that way. i told chantal that on a scale of 1 to 10 my love for her was a 7.5, but when i try to say something its not always what i think im trying to say. I think the other thing is that i tried to make love equal to how much you worry about someone. What I've learned from my last relationships is that you have to have some independence. When i wasnt talking to the person i was with for a while i would be sad. I would feel a little bit obsessive. Though havin some me me time gave me the ability to not be so dependent on someone else. But it doesnt mean you have to be insensitive of the other person. When chantal misses me, its obvious. She does worry about me a good amount but i try not to worry about her alot. Why? Cause i have faith. Faith that no matter what happens nothing bad will happen. Does that mean that nothing bad will happen, no its natural but there are things in life you just cant help and because i accept that, I am able to not worry as much. And I am not worried about her ever breaking up with me because i know we will be together for the rest of our lives, and yes i dont know that for a fact, but i have faith and im willing to do whatever to make that a reality. So to correct what i said about my love for her, it cant be measured on a scale of 1 to anything. I love her soo much, nothing will ever change how i feel about her, and i will love her till and/or past the day i die <333333333333333333333
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