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Dear Matt,

I wanted to tell you some things that you have missed since you've been gone. I'm in 11th grade already it's great. I'm so sorry that you couldn't see me grow up that you couldn't hold me during my darkest times and most of all that it has taken me this long to type you this. It's hard to type through all the tears but I need to do it. I'm really sorry that I haven't been able to let you go after all these years, I still think about you every single day. I miss you so much that i don't want to let you go but it's wrong of me to try to keep you in my heart and let it cause me even more pain. I love you and I always will no matter what you will always be my dad even now when I have Scott, don't get wrong I love him and think of him as my father. But anyway I have to let go I'm in so much pain I have to let go even though I don't want to because I feel if I let go then I lose you when I know I won't. I miss you so much and I wish that I could see you again but I can't until I get up there....

I love you so much,
Keeli.