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Heartful Thoughts,

Have you ever wished that something never really went away? That it chose to be with you forever? And then when that happens, your torn because your thought that could come true when it really wasn't ever there? I know how you feel. Thinking something will last, and never does. It rips my fragile heart out. I can't cry on command, but it just takes something very little, to let the small tears run down my face. But when that person that I thought would never go away did, I didn't cry. Not one tear. Not one frown. I stared blankley at things. I wasn't sad. I just gave my hope up, but not on everything, just on that person. Though I didn't feel sad, I felt guilty. Had I chased that person away? Would this mean the end of everything? No. Now, rewind. I was young when I thought those things, and just a few months after that, I knew my thoughts were overly dramatic. Which makes me think now, that I keep trying to stop crying at everything that is the tiny bit sad. I've worked on it. I feel I'm getting better. I never cry when I'm hurt. Only if it's too painful to bear. And jut that makes me feel much better about myself. And it makes me feel better about my life.

Sincerly,

Cece @ll Star