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crying (him= david )

so yesterday
I "work up the courage" and told him
well it was more like we were talking and I wouldn’t say who it was "who liked him "
I said" im afraid of your reaction "
he said " im pretty sure it'll be all good no worries"
but I still wouldn’t spill
crying
then he asked
"do you like me Nat?"
I swear in real life would’ve been dieing sweatdrop
******** god this was over the phone redface
I could only giggle like an idiot while I cried slightly crying redface
he laughed and was like " ill take that as a yes "
I mumbled shrilly" mhm " then I apologized redface

this guy is
so sweet
he said after I apologized

"don’t worry I knew already kind of and this in no way will effect our bestfriendness wee good "

which in nice terms is rejection

I could only garble for abit and make small noises till I calmed down cuz im a fuking spazz
we were fine but for the rest of the night I was way off

I had no dreams
nothing sad
and before bed we were talking about soul mates
Yeh
not the topic of choice
cuzi really thought he could be one

*sighs *
I guess I’m not really hurt
its more like
a smack in the face
and scolding
the waggling of the finger saying " you know not to get your hopes up you silly girl why do you even try ?" emo redface