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I'm having a hard time coping with some stress...I have a friend that I like and well...He's bi, but like this other dude, who I like, too. Then I like someone else...And OMG I just feel like a ********'- dirty- disgusting-slut-hoe bag- b***h of a whore. That and my mom's constantly working, it stresses me out because I'm afraid she'll die, like everyone else has. I started cutting again recently like I have been off-and-on for the pst 6 years. I just went crazy with the razor...By the time I was done I had bits of flesh hanging off the razor, plus I snapped it in half while cutting.. i think I pressed too hard. But yeah, life ******** sucks d**k and monkey balls!! But I guess it could be worse, like my sisters, my mom, my friends, could die crying I honestly hope I die before any of them...I can't bear the heartache I feel like I'm attention seekiing >_< I don't like that feeling