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"The Impossible"
Is this for real
Or is it my imagination?
Am I dreaming
Or am I awake?
This is the impossible
The impossible for me
Like my perfect fantasy
Except, in the real world...

"Falling Apart"
I'm falling apart at the seams
The scars have cut the stitches
That hold me together
I'm falling to pieces

"Guinea Pig"
What am I to you?
You play with my emotions
Like I'm your experiment
What is your point for this
What you are doing solves nothing
So why do u do this?
What am I to you?

"Wake Up"
When will I wake up
When will I realize
That nothing will ever happen
Dreams will never come true
Maybe in someone else's life they do
But not for me
I need to stop makebelieving
And wake up to the world
And face the truth
But the truth hurts
The truth will destroy me
Leave me lifeless
Dying in my mind
Wake up, wake up...

"Guilt"
I'm standing here
Surrounded by all this guilt
Trying to fight my way out
Its suffocating me
Killing me slowly...

"The Take Over"
All of these feelings
These unsure feelings
Are beginning to show
Finding the way outside
Almost controlling
Controlling my mind
Causing others sorrow
It won't leave me alone

"Wondering"
You know what?
Its kind of funny
The way things eat you up
From the inside
No matter how small or stupid
That thing may be...

"My Enemy"
The torture
The backstabbing
It was always you
You were twisting the knife in my back
Keeping a straight face as I screamed
We were once friends
But forever enemies

"Johnny"
You walk silently
Hiding behind your bangs
Not looking at anyone
Only blaming yourself
For everything
Punishing yourself
For nothing
Hiding the cuts, blood, and scars
That are the only proof
Of who hurt you inside

"Fantasy"
We walk this lonely path
Alone together we're alone
No one but us
In our perfect world
Buts its only a dream
Its not real
All a stupid fantasy

"Invisibility"
Its driving me insane
I cry and scream for help
My life is draining away
No one really cares
So its like I don't exist
When I'm standing right here

"The Nightmare and the Traitor"
I'm standing in a dark hallway
With no end on either side
Each door I open
A memory of my past mistakes
Come to haunt me
Then at the end of the hall
I see a person I'm not sure of
Not sure to trust
Or to know
But then they fade
And I become weak
I collapse to the ground
And everything becomes dark...
I'M DYING!!!

"Destroy the Monster"
I'm so horrible
I'm such a monster
Why won't someone destroy me
I deserve it
I deserve to be torn down
I deserve to die
Shoot me through the heart
Blow my brains out
Hang me where everyone can see
Do something and destroy me
For my own sake
For my sanity
What's left of it

"Goodbye"
I guess its alright now
Yeah, that's a lie
I'm not okay
Nothing is okay
Trust me
This is torture
Like getting off an addiction
I must make it through this
Our final goodbye

"The Point"
What's the point?
With love
With hate
What's the point of living
If its a life
With or without you

"Repair"
Come take me away
To a place we can be alone
Where we can talk
And not worry about everything else
To fix our broken dreams
And stitch our split seams

"Break It"
Take my heart and smash it
Break it into pieces
You never loved me
You're a great liar
I cared for you
Being friends won't work for me
I'm already tangled in your web of lies
I want to die, I want to die

"Johnny #2"
Sitting there
Acting like everything's okay
Smiling and laughing
Hiding your pain
Behind those dark eyes
Losing your mind
Wishing someone cared
Wishing someone was there
To chase the thoughts away