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Lets see. My dad has smashed my face into books, my mom tries in every single way possible to make my life miserable. Why cant parents be loving? I guess the only thing you can say about that is how you're going to be better than them. I always say i am going to give my kids all the love i possibly can. i am going to treat them like they are the most important to me, which, second to my husband, they will be. i will be so nice to them it will be amazingg. I hate how parents can be so mean, ever since i was small i never felt loved by them, no matter how much they tried to lie to me and reassure me that they loved me. i never believed them. I always felt so alone because of them. they wouldn't let me see anyone i was dating, to even give them a chance to possibly love them. my mom doesn't love my dad i know that. he either loves her, or loves to annoy her, or mooches off her. he makes us go to church every Sunday. my relationship with Hikaru is the first relationship i could ever go to his house. but its dimmed to every other Sunday. its made me resort to him coming over at night just so we could actually hang out. I wish i was 18. I think id rather be an orphan than live with this. it would be just the same then no one could tell me i couldn't get emancipated. i mean its really bad if i even considered that. i never thought i would consider separating myself from my parents. its just you have to give the court a good reason, prove you can live on your own, and be married. Course, you have to have your parents permission to get married, and my moms disgusted at the fact that i could be happier than her. so she tries to ruin my life. I never hang out with my friends, and its ridiculous. i am sick of it. and my dad is so obsessed with power he tries to control everything i do. so i just stay down in my basement on the computer. thanks to the Xbox being upstairs, my brothers on that all day and i can be alone. Plus, even though i am 17, they still take my phone from me and ground me, etc. its ridiculous. people may say they have the right intentions, but i don't think them over controlling me could ever mean they have the right intentions. they want to control every aspect of my life, my emotions, and my friends and relationships. hell, my dad cant even do anything for himself. he gets me to make tea all the time. i am just so sick of how they are. people also say "well at least you have 2 parents!" but id rather be in their situation with one. my mom would be so much happier if her and dad broke up.


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