At least I think that is how you're supposed to start these. I am not too sure, it has been too long. I cannot take it anymore, it is becoming too much. I try my hardest to seem OK, but it is just TOO HARD. My life has turned upside down and I do not know what to do anymore. Ever since he left... But I promised you that I would forget about him, so I will not talk about that now. *sigh*
But he's just so hard to forget when every time I turn around he's there. Watching me in the mirror, stalking me in my shadow, and haunting me in my dreams. I wish he would disappear, and never come back. But that will never happen, since I do not truly wish to forgive him, or even to forget him. No... I promised you... *tear falls* I am sorry, it gets so hard...
I am sorry I talked about him again. I know I made this diary to stop talking about him, but it's hard. My other one, which is now burned, spoke only of him. Maybe one day I will tell you what happened, but for now I need to let my heart heal. Good bye for now. Love forever,
Melodi
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