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Roughly a week has past. A week ago was the biggest mistake that I ever made. I wish I hadn't dumped him, I wish I hadn't gone overboard with my emotions, I wish I had never did any of the things that I did.
Now a week has past, my feelings for him still haven't changed. I love him still. I truelly do, but I don't know how to show him at all. I've tried texting him and keeping a conversation, I've given him things he wanted, gave him all my gold, and yet, I dont know where to go from here.
Even writing about him is still hard for me to do. Every time I think about him any where from a few tears to the whole waterworks end up happening. My heart feels like there is this huge gaping hole. I want him back so badly, I just don't know how to tell him. I don't even know if I should because, what if he doesn't want me back. I'm already still hurting, and that kind of vunerability is what I'm afraid of.
I'm sorry. I'm so, so sorry. I want a restart, a second chance. I just want him back. I want to be with him. I want to love him, make him laugh again. I just want him in whole back, even though I don't deserve it.